Where is the Natural Hair Journey Taking Me

So tonight I was thinking. I am looking at all of these pictures of myself and other youtubes and thinking it's going to be a year of natural hair in October and what do I have to show for it? That is a terrible attitude and outlook and I know this but seriously. My hair isn't at the length I would like it to be to do more wash and gos. Or is it that I am not happy with the texture?  I'm thinking of all the growth and success I see from other people through videos. But where is mine? I can map out a plan to graduate college on time but not for healthy  hair growth. I guess I thought by now I would be styling it differently and maybe it's a challenge for to find more hairstyles. Who knows.